“Children are a heritage from the Lord;
Children are a reward from Him.
Like arrows in the hands of a warrior
are children born in ones youth.
Blessed is the woman
whose quiver is full of them.”
Arrows would be used for defense. Also for hunting food. For self-protection, protection of others, provision, nourishment, survival, resourcing.
Since the heritage and reward sometimes feel far-off…..
And yet, they aren’t far off because I love their laughter, cuddles, happy spirits.
Their happy spirits are so dependent on my own. If I’m grumpy, tired, irritated, I can be unkind with them, which makes them grumpy, tired, irritated.
I am a warrior and this is my battle. The battle is not against my children, or against the mess. My battle is for the state of my soul; the state of their souls.
My battle is not to win against clutter, but to win against anger, discouragement, sarcasm.
I am a warrior and my battle is a Kingdom battle.
God fights for me, and I am no alone.
“You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours.”
What is the fruit of my labor that I desire to eat?
A peaceful feeling from cleanliness?
A husband happy with a tasty dinner?
That’s small picture stuff.
Bigger picture stuff is
…Children who are happy and peaceful
…Children having a childhood of fun and adventure
…A calm spirit with a gentle response
…Feeling proud of my home?
…Feeling proud of my heart.
Talking to my children all day long about Jesus. Living with His presence near so they experience the effects of it and learn to live in this manner.
This verse is an encouragement: Don’t give up.
Much of your labor may seem fruitless, repetitive and mundane. Planting but never harvesting. Cleaning without ever getting things clean.
But your labor is not without fruit.
Your effort is not without blessing. Your sacrifices are not unto nothing. Blessing will be yours. Prosperity and fullness will be yours.
“From the fullness
of God’s grace,
we have all received
one blessing after another.”
For all the times I feel empty,
drained of my resources, strength, energy.
When I feel physically and emotionally needed,
beyond what I have left to give.
The fullness of God’s grace.
Never dried up.
Never used up.
Never half full.
Always totally full,
More than enough to fill me.
To fill my children.
To fill my bank account.
“As Jesus and His disciples were on their way, He came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to Him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what He said.
But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to Him and asked ‘Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her to help me!’
‘Martha, Martha,’ the Lord answered, ‘you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.’ “
HAD to be made…. HAD. So much that HAS to be done. HAS TO.
What are my reasons to overfunction?
I need to have things a certain way.
I need to be in control.
I have to do everything myself.
Being WITH people
Being needed by people
can’t be crossed off a list.
Sometimes I think about my older son. How he needs my attention. Always asking me to play with him. My husband, working to provide for our family. Desiring my company. The baby. So little. Still so much need. No way to tell him “No…” or “Please wait….”
(Note to myself – I don’t want him crying at my feet in the kitchen anymore. Need to store a baby carrier in the kitchen for easy access.)
And I think,
“Why do all of you have to NEED me so much?!
Can’t you see I’m busy getting things done?!”
I want a task I can cross off my list so I can feel I’ve done something, anything, which won’t have to be done again in an hour.
But I can’t cross off
being with my people,
off a list.
Nourish. (my home. my children. myself. my faith).
Joy. (experience it. feel it. be it.)
Nourish (not Maintain).
Joy (not Drudgery).
all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
buy and eat!
Come buy wine and milk without money and without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
Give ear and come to Me;
hear Me, that your soul may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love that I promised.
Nourish the Soul.
Take time to do this despite the
seeming monotony of maintaining our days.
in my days.
in cleaning the floor under the high chair
for the fifth time today.
“Let me tell you,
what He has done for me.
He has done for us.
Great is our God,
for He is good.”
……..David Crowder Band
I am living the life I always dreamed of.
where is my Joy?
……………………. These thoughts were journaled in October 2015. It was from a women’s group I participated in, which facilitated a devotional time on this verse. It was the catalyst for me to begin personal devotions again. Something I haven’t done for maybe fifteen years, since high school. Since October (it is now February), I’ve accomplished it around 2-3 times per week, on mornings when I wake up alert and the kids are still asleep. I’ve decided to share some of them publicly, as much as possible as-written. It is my journey with Jesus as a young mom, and I have been nudged by the Lord that it could possibly help other young moms with young kids. I tend to start projects and slowly lose interest in them, so we will see how this one goes.